In an instant...

It's not crazy.

I'm not sure why people say that.

And by "people", I mean me.

I used to say that a lot.

I just thought it actually, which is what sparked this opening.

Life can change so quickly.

We all say it.

We all know it.

But every time we experience it...

Every time it's my life that changes quickly...

I think: "Wow. That's crazy."

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CRA·ZY
[krey-zee] | adjective, -zi·er, -zi·est, noun, plural -zies. |

- having an unusual, unexpected, or random quality, behavior, result, pattern, etc.

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But it isn't really that crazy when I think about it.

It's actually quite the opposite.

It's almost expected.

There is always an ending.

If there wasn't an ending, there couldn't be a beginning.

And beginnings are fun.

Anyway...

Moving on...

Some interesting changes have found their way into my life.

And everything changed very quickly, extremely quickly actually.

Perhaps I am over thinking it though.

I hope I am, because if I'm not...

Well that just sucks.

I could smell the steamy fresh bullshit.

It seeped through my 3g connection and oozed out of my eVo.

:BEGIN CHARACTER BUILDING:

At first, I am kind to everyone I meet. (usually)

I am warm, and loving, caring, and understanding.

I can take a lot of criticism but, please, be aware of the line.

And there is, most definitely, a line.

Once you cross it, I usually take some time, in silence, to make sure that you know where you're standing.

Once I am aware that you do , in fact, understand where you're standing, and you don't care, I'll make sure you are aware.

And I'll even be nice about it.

But on the edge of not being nice about it.

I'm there now.

END CHARACTER BUILDING

Just a few days ago, I received some interesting news.

And by "interesting" I mean:

"garbage disposal fecal matter, served with a side of vanity."

Was I surprised?

Not really.

Was I upset that it actually happened?

A little.

I think I was more relieved than upset.

I got that "upset/relieved" feeling.

Like 98% relieved and 2% upset.

Or...

Maybe it was the other way around.

Maybe I was 98% Upset and 2% relieved.

But that's what makes it so intense, it's so confusing.

I can't really figure it out.

For a moment I felt as if I could finally breathe again.

I felt the energy change on a Wednesday and within a week...

ORDER UP! Hot shit on a plate with a side of indigestion!

Yeah, not the first time someone has done that to me.

And I'm sure it won't be the last.

In the past, I'd be upset about it for a some time.

I'd hold it with me, losing sleep, weight, interest, enthusiasm... everything.

I'd just slowly deteriorate until only the skeleton of this man remained, and then I would start the rebuilding process.

This time...

...isn't too different.

Hopefully it won't last long.

It's for the best right?

Serendipitous really.

Well...

so far. :)

No big deal though.

I feel like I came out on top, and that's all that matters.

Right?

It's pretty crazy, isn't it?

Damn.

There's that phrase again... ;)