Motorcycle drive by!!!! HOLY $*!T!!!

okay.. inspiration only happens in short short short doses and it gets smaller and smaller if you are a writer...

but i just had a great one!!!

i think..

motocycle drive by is playing.. "on the water...alone"... i actually wrote that as it was sung... so now youre in my timing....

"annnnnnnd i never been so alive" and i wrote that in timing too... so now you can compare and contrast...

so i just had a conversation with a very good friend of mine..

we have been friends for years a while now.. and it was always... kinda weird.. but still okay.. then it was bad then it was good - then great.. then non existant.. and after that it was gone...

even in each others presence we would not even see each other.. and it was because of bullshit anyways... shit that neither of us had control of...

so time passes fast forward 2 years later... whooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
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oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooosh...

okay... two years later... couple glasses of wine in.. and she says "i kinda want to kiss you" and im like thinking.. WTF.. huh!? are you.. really?!.. i mean... i uhhh... well.. i umm.. yea..no... may.. i dunno... what could happen here how ??? could this take effect in the rest of my life this decision right here what do i do how do i do it... shes asking and idunno what i want to say wha shit!!!! how do i answer do i kiss her do i not kiss her... how do i do it.. i mean i think ... i dunoo.. what do i do ... how do i act.. how when.. here? now?,,, i mean but!!!!!

...anyways...whew...

thats what i was thinking guys... that shit all up there... and all in a matter of an ((1/18th)) flip of a hummingbirds wing..

http://www.yesmag.bc.ca/Questions/Hummingbird.html

and do you know what i did...

i replied.. are you saying this to me or is it just because im the one standing here?

she says.. to you.

we walked and talked and i stood there... pondering.. what do i do when we get there... are we gonna shake hands... walk away.. what do i do...

so i take a moment... just a moment.. and i control my mind.. my imagination and i control my... well lets not get ahead of ourselves..

i imagined...

cool decemeber night.. seen each other at club.. we were dressed to impress and were very successful in that venture... eyes were passed along with hugs kisses and conversation... a lil dancing... some glasses of champagne.. then.. the wine...

and i have to say despite what a 25 year old musician (www.smilinmcgee.com) :)
lliving in the heart of orlando pursuing the dream he dreamt about in another dream... 2 times the dream... not just pursuing my dream but my friggin DREAMS DREAM!!!

thats crazy

anyways...

saw garden state yesterday... phenomenal..

okay back to the point at hand

i listened to heaven today like 5 damn times.. weird.. it was inducing an emotion i have not felt for quite some time... but it was.. different i guess...

anyways

i prefer wine over anything.

so... the wine...

one glass..two glass.. three glass...

door... goodbyes....car... nighttime... cool time... tipsy... told that she kinda wanted to kiss me.. so i took every ounce of energy and imagine all the way up to that point and mid sentence...she was silence as i took her... i just ... stole her from her footsteps and encompassed her with one of the most passionate kisses i could give to a person that have never kissed before...

thats pretty passionate damnit!

so...... whooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
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oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooosaaaaaaa!!!!!!!

fast forward to tonight at

SuchAndSuchName (12:40:16 AM) ....."and we can just be friends"

so i guess i'm kinda bummed.. i think that would have really fun.

dammit lost snorter! she makes me laugh...

okay back to the task at hand

i just experienced the end of an era that never started..

and it was a mature decision.. WTF!?!?

I dont wanna be mature.. thats for weakling... fraidy cats... thats the fear factor you hapless scared bastards! being mature.. having a "real job"... you wanna "real job" and "real career" sure go ahead.. leaves the pursuits of understanding for the ones that arent scared... that arent afraid to pursue the unsure thing... you think pursuing money will not only bring you wealth but satisfaction too?! hah! sucks for you.. what would you have done if you existed before there was a form of currency... would you want power!? okay fine... you want power... great...

lets see what happens...

we'll give you a machine to make money... legal money for anywhere in the world, plates... ink.. everything you would need to make it .. everything. and you are making money left and right in all forms... coins and bills and trinkets and tokens... and tickets and teeth... buffalo skins... sheep.. whatever

and we'll give you an ax and some trees.. and a tent and some water.. and electricity and a huge plasma screen and the fastest car and a machine to make machines to build buildings and rockets and houses and clothes of every style.. and.. whew.. i think thats enough

right? right.

hope youre happy...

maturity...

what happened to the days where i just wanted to play with my new gi joes..
transformers watching knight rider and airwolf and todays special on nickelodeon.. watchin orioles baseball.. damnit growin up sucks... but its not the growin up... its the growing SCARED!!!!

Wake up bitches! dont be afraid to chase the unsure thing... you know what?! run after that bastard with a powered rocket from ACME... you now what!? even better... dont chase the unsure thing... CHASE THE THING THATS JUST GONNA FALL TO PIECES IN YOUR HANDS.. that you know is just gonna suck ass!

and if you try hard enough... it will one day... be a beautiful thing.

trust me... im doin it.

ive been to the corporate fields and i didnt like what i saw...

which was rich, nice car drivin assholes..

that were so possessed by money they couldnt enjoy a beautiful walk on a beautiful night with a beautiful person cause even then.. it was all about money.

i personally hate it and this is from a person that doesnt hate anything... but just found something..

...for the moment anyways...

but we need it...

dont we?

so im on the artistic side now..

livin tight..

i havent eaten all day and its 139 am on friday jan 7th and im talkin bout the 6th...

so... its time for skibby to and get a plate of baked ziti thanks to carl and kelly and watch moulin rouge.

dont be afraid.

jammed on a song [[ written on (Monday, July 26, 2004, 3:26:18 PM) ]] for a bit... glad i could remember it and then play it back :)

....bout 3/4 of the way in...

but when you slip into the night
and kisses take you by surpise
and you dreams your reality
and you dont wanna wakin up....

good times

iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit's PASTA TIIIIIIIIIIIME!!!

stilios out...

jan27th chubbys in tallahassee

http://www.chubbys.cc/

1:57am