creative in the morning

"I'm only heart broken in the morning, the rest of the day i just miss her."

so yeah, it's like 2 worlds i live in: the morning and the night. in the morning im pretty much stressed to hell. Job, money, life, friends, love, family, and music. So what do i do? I pick up the guitar.. and i write. thats when most of my thoughts make it to paper...

other than that they just stay jumbles of u/i ndephierable thoughts. i wasnt sure if i was spelled with an "U" or an "I" so i did it with both.

I was just playing this song called "Run-n-Hide". Based of course on a previous relationship where instead of dealing with feelings and emotions, running away from them seemed to be the better answer. And yes based on what I said yesterday I know what I'm doing :)

So DAMN the internet! This friggin thing has made the world so small! Seriously now... do you know how many phone calls i had to make last night to order some pizza??!? if you are by any means internet savy you will know the answer is... drum roll please dadadaadadadadadadadadadaadda

ZERO! yes, thats right...Nada Zip Zilch Nothing...
[no phone call*] just a login to www.papajohns.com and whammo! 20 minutes later.. knock knock, heres your friggin pizza. sign this and have a dandy night.

*that reminds me I also was just playin a song called "No goodbyes" wherein an idea was just dropped that had been in the works for almost 2 years... it was abandoned, no phonecall to let me know, no goodbye... nothin'.. just an email. thankx. :)

anyways... back the the smallness of the world...

the internet has given everyone a voice. Thanks alot FRIGGIN INTERNET (shaking fist toward the sky!) now introverts are extroverts and extroverts are capitalizing on their extrovertedness<--- im like shakespear baby i create words! yeah!

anyways... i'm connected to everyone all the time, poland, russia, europe, siberia, peru, the arctic, somalia and hmmmm... prague. along with every other country that has the occupants with an IQ over 70. okay so maybe not poland...

i have one and only one question... right now at least.

WHAT DID THEY DO BEFORE AIM?!?!!? BEFORE AWAY MESSAGES?!?! BEFORE EMAIL AND INTERNET PORN!??! BEFORE SPAM AND POWERPOINT?!!? BEFORE THE ABILITY TO TAKE OVER A COMPUTER AND LEARN ALL THE INTIMATE DETAILS ABOUT ANOTHER PERSON AND THEIR INNER DEMONS??!??! WHAT DID THEY DO!? GOODNESS...

okay... i'm back thanks. i guess that was like 6 questions...

and cell phones!!! Ahhhhhhh!!! I loathe cell phones!!! Dammit! and cell phone contracts... goodness... 2years?! and if i change my plan i lose me free minutes... well suck a big hairy cactus AT&T, you bastards!

The only thing good that has come of the internet is my access to music... which is the greatest thing ever. yes, i think written word is mankinds greatest achievement but music... thats an upgrade.

thats like comparing the wheel to the (Wheeeeeel Ooof Fortune!!!)

sure the wheel was a great idea; but the wheel of fortune? now that was an epic achievement.

song: last train home (lostProphets)
mood: somber
time: 11:38 a.m.
place: my bed
underwear: Black Jockey Boxer Briefs and i must say... Damn I look deeeead sexxxxy.

song: run rabbit run (eminem)
mood: frustrated
time: 11:42 a.m.
underwear: same, just 4 minutes older.

Bean Bag chairs, great invention and now I'm done.. so buh bye and ill leave you with the daily quote...

"you only live once, there's no time like the present, might as well take risks cause that way you have no regrets in the end."
~erica


lata,
~Bstylz
.f**k spell check.